Christmas is upon us! I wrapped some presents today (which turned out okay), but with Christmas comes sad and happy memories.  I think of all the Christmases that I have had and all of my favorite memories are with two people who are not in my life anymore. I was thinking how a person was still in my life, but he's not truly in my life, but I wish he was. I would love to go back and beg him to take me back and hope it would work out, but everyone has something or someone in their life that isn't good for them.  Kenny Cheney's You and Tequila is about a woman and tequila not mixing with him; about them not working, but him always going back.  My tequila is food and my You is Shawn. Everyone has their two things, but I think moving on and finding growth is recognizing what your two things are.  However, I can sit here and tell you what my two things are or have a conversation that makes everyone think I am okay and moving on, but its hard. I don't know when I will ever be perfectly fine, but I know that I am fine...I don't have cancer, I have my family, and my friends...yes it is hard losing someone, but I am okay and that is all we can wish for ourselves or our friends.

On a happier note it is getting to Santa's big day and I took some pictures for our holiday card and I will share them here.



Buttons looks like she might eat you, but I think she is smiling;)