It just occurred to me

I went to see The Lucky One tonight and was blown away my the emotions that it raised in me. It speaks of faith, destiny, and determination. I was so taken with how lost the characters were except in the faith of their pain and then in the faith of one another. I was so upset this afternoon by seeing a conversation between Shawn and a girl on fb. I thought that I would be fine but I wanted to scream remember me the fiancé the one who stood by you, who loved you and took care of you but I don't have that place anymore. I realized that the movie is right that destiny changes things and so does faith but it changes it on a far smaller scale then I realized. I thought I changed my destiny when I chose a career and I did but I also changed my destiny today by better understanding my feelings. In eight weeks I am going to change my destiny in a large way by moving but tonight it struck me that I already had by being on my own and going forward with my life. This will be the first time in my life that I will not have a soul around to hang out with but one day I will and then my destiny will have changed again because I had faith. I still feel anger and extreme sadness but I know I'll get to peace someday.