It just occurred to me

I went to see The Lucky One tonight and was blown away my the emotions that it raised in me. It speaks of faith, destiny, and determination. I was so taken with how lost the characters were except in the faith of their pain and then in the faith of one another. I was so upset this afternoon by seeing a conversation between Shawn and a girl on fb. I thought that I would be fine but I wanted to scream remember me the fiancé the one who stood by you, who loved you and took care of you but I don't have that place anymore. I realized that the movie is right that destiny changes things and so does faith but it changes it on a far smaller scale then I realized. I thought I changed my destiny when I chose a career and I did but I also changed my destiny today by better understanding my feelings. In eight weeks I am going to change my destiny in a large way by moving but tonight it struck me that I already had by being on my own and going forward with my life. This will be the first time in my life that I will not have a soul around to hang out with but one day I will and then my destiny will have changed again because I had faith. I still feel anger and extreme sadness but I know I'll get to peace someday.

So here we are....

I was speaking with a friend who I dearly care about and she suggested that start blogging again and I think she is right. To bring everyone up to speed I did get into school and I will be moving to Charlotte in eleven weeks and I an sad and super excited. I believe my good friend Andre will be helping me and I am always in his debt for always being good to me. I have learned so far in 2012 that life is about no more bullshit, moving on, and real relationships. I think we get too twisted in relationships that don't matter and then you become burned out and hate everything about the situation you are in. This has allowed me to let go and focus on what is good and right in my life, in other words what is important . I think we all need to look at our lives and see what is really important and everything else we need to just get rid of. A good friend said he got an email about letting go: when a glass breaks and it's not worth picking up just turn and let it lie because it will forever. be broken. So basically stop trying to fix something that will always be broken and don't try to fix it only worry about things that matter. So let's look inside evaluate yourself and what's important . Until another....